baby balk

so… i’ve never really enjoyed talking to babies. i think it’s because i find it sort of ridiculous; overly theatrical. i feel that i’m only doing it for the parents, as if by showing interest in their little creation i’m somehow showing interest in them. but, if that were the case, then simply talking to them about their baby would suffice. however… i don’t feel like it does. i feel bad about not talking to babies. especially when i see people who obviously really enjoy talking to them. i feel downright inhuman.  the thing is, i feel overly self-conscious talking to something that doesn’t understand me - and that’s really it. i mean, i’ll tickle a baby… i’ll coo and make faces for a baby (i think i particularly like making faces because babies seem to be most responsive to that (from me… when i touch them they often cry)). anyhow… talking to babies just seems totally pointless. i imagine i’ll change my perspective on that at some point… otherwise any children i have would have a pretty small chance at speaking themselves. but… for now it just seems crazy. i know that’s illogical.